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You can't always get the things you want
Friday, March 2, 2012 | (0) comments

This looks professional

Oh hi there, Shane

Azim's epic face and hidayat jamming at the background like a DJ

L-R: Angel, Gilyn, Alicia, Me

Reynard and his small eyes!

Adilah! The lighting here is so good!

MJ! We best friends ok! Get your facts right before you judge

Weekee and her pretty cam

With munfoong!


Joey and Sing!


And this is the crowd cheering for the participants


Those pictures were taken at Woodlands stadium last saturday when i went for my sports heats. I joined 800m and i got trashed -,- Shouldn't have ran too fast at the beginning, i got s freaking tired and my legs tensed for the whole day because i ran over my limit. JEEZ, how did jolene even ran for 3 events continuously. I think she vomited when she reached home. HAHA anyway, that was like my first time bringing my dslr to a school event since i'm always lazy to bring it to school. Some of them are nice some aren't, there are more at my facebook page!


When you're running, and it seems like the whole stadium is cheering for you.


Many things had happened these few days. Studies, relationships, council and all sorts of things which make me really wanna breakdown. I've actually been chosen to be the head of operations for sec 2 camp. Yeah i know, you can only choose one camp to go- either OBS or planning for sec 2 camp. I REALLY REALLY SERIOUSLY ABSOLUTELY want to go OBS alot alot alot. But in order to you know actually become an exco in council, you somehow have to lead in sec 2 camp. Cos i really want to be an exco. Erm yeah, that's my goal, i'll do my best to achieve it.

Well yeah, another thing that had happened is about all lovey dovey relationships stuffs which i really dont feel like opening it here. I actually failed quite a number of my tests so now i'm seriously gonna hardcore study every single day, to BUCK UP. I ain't gonna wait there and die. Seriously, my class is super uber competitive and full of smartasses.

I got an A for emath test, it's supposed to be a great thing right? But well, in my class, 42/43 people scored an A. SUCK IT UP MAN. Its not that the paper is too easy, compared to other classes, we're like quite smart, and i know i'm uber noob in my class.

I actually really need to update my wardrobe now since public performance is coming round the corner! I'm so gonna go with my SIPATANS <3 heheheheh. Well yeah, gotta dress up and stuff but AM NOT PUTTING MAKE UP. I will look so fake, if i put alot. I gotta go new future to buy some jeans but mum is bringing me to town tomorrow. Should i buy a school bag or use the money to buy the hunger games series/lone wolf by jodi picoult? I will seriously look like a professional carrying the jodi picoult book around when i'm doing my council duty in the morning! ^^



GOTTA HARDCORE STUDY!
ADIOS~





Social bully.
Sunday, January 29, 2012 | (0) comments









Have you ever been look down on? Or have you ever thought that you weren't fat until a person tells you so?



I admit that i'm fat and i've been in this state for almost 3 years. Previously, i just don't want to admit the fact, because of those tumblr inspiring quotes that says: If you think you're beautiful, you're beautiful. If you think you're fat, then you're fat. So i tried my best to escape from reality. I don't know why but the boys in my school loved to tease me alot. I think it's because i always kaopei them. You know kaopei? As in, you always snap rudely at whatever comment they make about you. But they don't know the reason why i snap at them.



Nobody knows, not even my bestest friend. So i open this: I snap at people mainly because when i was in Primary 4, i get bullied a lot. And when i say a lot, it means a lot. I don't even offend my classmates then and they just typically like to tease me. They teased me so much that it became bullying. I cried a lot of times then. I told my dad to tell the teacher in my class but he just want me let it go. Let the matter go, not once, twice, but a lot of times. Since then, whenever somebody get so close to me and make a somewhat rude comment about me, i'll snap angrily at them. Eventually, it became my personality and because i like to joke around, it became some of my jokes too.

So, get back to the topic. The boys in my school NOW, loved to tease me. I don't mind them teasing me, but when they crossed the line, i didnt even snap at them. I just kept quiet. So yeah, now you know when i keep quiet, that means something's wrong. Last year, one of my friend loveeeee to tease me so much that whenever i'm having my recess, he'll come over and say:"Stop eating fat pig, you should start slimming down, don't eat so much." I wasn't hurt by this. I was hurt by the next thing: During racial harmony day, he asked me what i was planning to wear on that day. When i haven't even reply, he said:"Aiya, confirm cannot fit in."

YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THAT LINE HURTS?!?!?!

There was one point in time that i broke down. I literally broke down. I told myself that i CANNOT let those tears fall down. Because when you let them fall, you'll lose. I don't really hate that friend now because i forgive the past. I hurt a lot of people while defending myself these years. I hurt the people i love. I'm still immature, i gossiped a lot, typically the #2 gossiper in the whole entire school. Whatever social news, i'll somehow know. I got into trouble because of this too. So i tried my very best not to gossip. If i don't gossip, those feelings inside my mind will pile up and i'll typically suffer a depression. Yeah, so that's about my friend.

What hurts most is that your own family also insult you. My mum always say that im fat. Yeah i know im fat. I always shoot this back to her. But there was one point in time that i got so hurt i ran out of the house and came back 5 hours later. You are my mum and you're supposed to support me, not insult me. I understand that you are trying to motivate me to slim down. But do you know how hard i tried and do you think that i want to look like this?! I always looked at others and console myself that there are others that are way more fatter than me and they wanted to look like me as much as i wanted to look like professional models.


So yeah i think i should end here.

To that person that i told this story to: Im sorry i can't keep this as a secret anymore, cos it hurts so much inside.

To the people that i hurt in the past: I'm sorry, can we forgive and forget each other so we can start all over again?




Thanks for reading ! ;)








12 Days of Christmas
Wednesday, December 28, 2011 | (0) comments











Ohla !
I've been busy these few weeks, either doing councillor stuffs, sec 1 orientation, christmas shopping, or homework!!! :D Actually, the last one aint that true, i still haven't finished doing my homework. But im glad i started and im left with 4 to go!!! YAY-AY-AY-AY!
Well, you see the title of this post? I can't stop laughing after watching dee kosh's video of '12 Days of Dee Kosh's Chritsmas' ! OHMYGOSH, You guys really have to go check it out. It is AHMAEZING!

Sooooo, today. Alicia, Huiling and Mavis came over to have a meeting on our Malacca video. Actually, we were supposed to do that. But in the end when they came over, we realised we cannot do anything without Hanmin as we need his help to film the video because he is ACTING ! So Huiling and Mavis left at 10am. Alicia and i then slacked around for the next 2 hours before she left. I read through Naomi's blog and i was soooooooo inspired by her ENGALISH. AHAHAHHA ! Can't believe she got an A2 for English (info from formspring) and i barely scraped a B. SERIOUSLY.

Next isss, i went 2 christmas shopping trips. The 1st round was with Alvina on last tuesday to Jurong Point and the 2nd round was with Shirleen, Joey and Xintien to TOWN! YEAHHH! I dont care if the train has breakdowns or there's flood at orchard, I JUST WANT TO SHOP DOWNTOWN!!!! HAHAHAH im like some freaking lunatic person craving for shopping.

I've finished my Orientation slides for tomorrow's presentation and im waiting for Candy to approve so i can print ^^ OHYEAH, and today, i was chatting with Fernanda and we both were DIRECTIONERS! HAHAH Her Louis and my NIALL! HEHEHEH ^-^ I think Niall has the same crush as me, we both love FOOD like 123524630094798167962584579! OHLAALAA. Im getting crazier and crazier over 1D now. There are like my 1st official celeb that i fan over. Yeah, i've never been to a concert. My first 1D's concert was via youtube. Got a problem???????? HHAAH. Ok , so i shall stop my ranting , i need to buy some 1D stuffs for FERN because we had a deal to exchange 1D fan items. Im so Eggcited and fyi, i only received 1 christmas present which is from Joey. SADLIFE. I spent over $100 on christmas !! :D I dont care if i spend a thousand and receive a cent anyway. When i saw my family's smiles, $100 was nothing.

I shall end here now and maybe post in about a weeks' time? kbye.

Do check out my tumblr about epic 1D pics! CHEERS! http://www.bleedinglov-e.tumblr.com

PS:/ i dont own those 1D photos , and that's JB and NIALL! NIALL's soooooooooo adorable!






When boredom strikes
Saturday, December 17, 2011 | (0) comments




HEYYY GUYSSS.
I've been slacking at home for like the whole day and i kept re-watching Dee Kosh's videos like 1235438579856 times. I love the #ahahsiol, #hosehbo and Vulgarities & This Generation deeee most ! HAHA the 'omnomnomnom' he did when he wanted to say a vulgarity. I think i may pick up this idea to stop myself from spitting out too much nonsense. SERIOUSLY.

I on my computer because i wanted to do some Sec 1 Orientation admin. stuffs. BUT karma striked, i can't open my damn inbox !!!!!! Internet connection is getting slower and slower nowadays! It took me a whole 30minutes to set up my google chrome and visit my facebook page. You gotta do something fast singtel.

Sooooooooo.... yesterday, i went to catch a movie with Jiayun, Jolynn & Huiyi. We watched new years' eve and the whole cinema, there's only 10 people watching that show! FUNNY OR WHAT ?!!? Everybody went to watch Alvin and the chipmunks 3??????? Speaking of the chipmunks, my mom and sis decided to leave me alone and go catch that movie tomorrow while im at ngee ann poly getting lectured !!! Im so gonna start on ranting about that damn course again.

To add on my hate for it, there is a test for it tomorrow and i really dont bother to study for it. I dont care if i get a U-grade or whatsoever. IM NOT GONNA BE AN ENGINEER AND I DONT EVEN WANT TO TAKE UP AVT! SERIOUSLY.

Oppss, i got out of point again. Sooooooo, after watching New years' eve, our tummies were growling so we loitered around causeway, which means we typically took the escalators from the 7th floor to basement 1! NOT ELEVATORS BUT ESCALATORS! We went round & round & round~

We ended up going back to level 1 for mos burgers. I had a cheeseburger and a minestrone soup. Jiayun & I were gossiping while Huiyi & Jolynn were giving us weird looks as if we just landed from MARS. Huiyi had to leave in the middle of the meal so after that, the 3 of us went for some window-shopping. We went Watsons, Cotton on, Swensens (Jolynn insisted to take a phamplet for christmas shopping.
typicalsggirl97),Sasa, & Mimosa (where i had to buy shoe padding for my mum). Then we headed to Woodlands Civic Centre for mccafe where i met Putri, Marianney, and Wardah.
When i was about to leave, Putri asked if i was going for the band concert. The 3 of them were heading for the concert after that. I DIDNT WENT BECAUSE I HAVE NO TICKETS AND IM NOT INTERESTED. Godwin even asked me to accompany him for ava duty and i denied. Jolyyn, Jiayun & I went to loiter around where i met Qixuan, Amyrah, Gilyn and Tingen outside cotton on. Cotton on has a 50% storewide and i didnt carried enough cash for me to do some shopping!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHH !!!!!!!!! I aimed on one denim skirt which costs $20. I WANTED TO BUY IT SO BADLY BUT I HAVE TO SAVE FOR MAYBELLINE'S GEL EYELINER!

I HATE IT WHEN I HAVE NO JOB!!!!! SERIOUSLY ! Ok enough of my rants. Enjoy the pictures!








GOODABYE !
Rot is part of my life.
Thursday, December 15, 2011 | (0) comments





Hi guys, sooooooo, i really have nothing to do, therefore i came here to blog. Holiday seems to fly really really fast although what im really doing is rotting at home. I seriously wasted a lot of my time because i cant find a damn job! Im so freaking jealous of all my friends earninf 100 bucks for doing like just five days of job. I have a full whole month nothing to do but spend money! But even though if i found a job right now, i cant even do it. Firstly, i dont have much time left till school reopens and seckndly, i havent finish all my damn homework. Its like we're streaming this year and my school gives a ton of homework for the holidays, just because of what?!?! Incase we lose our memory because we played too hard?????!?!?!?
Ugh , ive been on all the social networks for the whole afternoon. For the past few days, ive been through this damn torturing workshop at ngee ann poly with boring people that just bore me whole day. Yesterday, half the class lept through the whole entire 8 hours lecture excluding me because i drank a damn coffee in the mornjng that kept me awake! Srsly, i paid $55 fot the course to learn engineering stuffs and im not even wanting to be an engineer! But too late to regret now, i still have one last day of torture on monday then i could PARTY!!!! Woooohooo.
And im in the midst of plabning for next year's secondary one orientation. Its so gonnaaa very fun. Ok, enough of my rants, thanks for reading!
Signing off;

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The leadership challenge (part 1) TGIF !
Saturday, November 12, 2011 | (0) comments

Huixin, our 2nd group leader giving her speech on out team vision

GIRL POWER :D

My group, TGIF ! :D




The leadership challenge (chp 1)

Day1: I woke up at 6am,brushed up and went to school, avoiding those weird stares on the mrt because of my big campbag. It's alr holiday so there weren't many secondary school students on the mrt. I reached school at about 6:45am and went to sit down with huiying, szemin, candy and a couple of girls. We chatted for awhile, while on the other hand checking each others' camp bag comparing the size and quantity. Typical camp girls. Miss janay lim then briefed us about the camp. Me, being the typical me was listening very attentively to every word she was saying. (: ^^

"Well, there is a slight change to the groups" my face lightened, yeahhhh! Will i get to be group up with vanessa, candy and sharon?! My heart sank upon hearing the next few words.

"Groups 1 to 4 will remain but group 5 will be splited up to the 4 groups." What?!?!?!?! I was silently praying that i will be assigned to group 1 with sharon, candy and vanessa. But hell no, karma wasn't on my side. Joey was assigned there. Then next i prayed that i will be assigned to group 3 since mingjie, chua , try and most of the 2-3 people were there. But no, i guess its really my luck. I was assigned to group 4 with kas and a bunch of guys which i didnt know. I sighed. Miss lim then gave us a break while waiting for our bus to arrive. I went to sit with kas and try and we chatted. More of i went there to check out their bags. Kiasu mee. The bus came and we boarded the bus. We as in me, adilah, kas,try and nadine went on board together since we were assigned to the same bus. Groups 1&2, first bus while groups 3&4 second bus. We were chatting all the way until MOE labrador campsite, our 'lovely &sweet home' for the next 5 days.


(FLASHBACK)
Adilah:"Good morning miss huang, can i meet all students attending the tlc camp?" A number of students from my class stood up and walked outside the classroom.
Adilah:"ok, this is a packing list and the groups you've been assigned to. Remember to meet at 7am in your sec 2 camp teeshirt on monday."
I took the paper and glanced. I already saw the list during quiet time. Hell yeah my group looks good.

Group 5: weizhi, jonathan, kasandra, joey, godwin, shazeilla, junxian, denise, zachary, jia wen.
Im soooooooo excited for the camp, and the other part of me was very scared. I hadnt got my 'P' for this month. Who knows if it'll come on the day of camp? Miss lim said that the camp was very very tough and seniors will cry a lot. And then i gotta know the schedules for the camp : high elements, kayaking, and amazing race. Shit, kayaking, water! Yesterday, we had a briefing conducted by daphne, a trainer from the absorbent mind. I told alvina to ask her: what if we have mens? And then daphne answered: your decision. She told us about her experience with another student. The student faced the same problem and Daphne also told her it's her decision. So, the student just went down the water and enjoyed herself very very very much. I felt quite relieved after hearing this.

(back to arrival in the campsite)
"Ok, placed your bags over there and follow me." Lye, our head instructor for the camp and also the boss of the absorbent mind instructed us. Although we set off late, we arrived faster than the other bus. I think the bus driver took a longer route this time so we ended up in the campsite after an hour's drive. We helped Lye and some facilitators (facil) which i later knew were Max (my group's facil), Yuanting, Alvin, and Belinda.

We did some ice-breaking games to know each other better. My NEW group consisted of Huixin, KAS, Nadine, Adilah, Tingen, Felicia, Weizhi, Lecong, Kaiern, Farihin, Benjamin (Ben), Azim, and me. At first, i know most of them except for Weizhi, Lecong and Farihin. Although Weizhi lived near my place and we always take the same train to school, but i never ever ever talked to him. We played ice-breaking games for like an hour or so. For one of the games which i dont know what's the name of the game, the one that we walked round and round in circles and reached a point to call the other team's name, my group lost. About 4-5 of US, Ben,Adilah and i think Lecong?

We did 20 over-head A.K.A. Buddha claps. Forfeits always give me a bad impression since one of the forfeits i had to do i dont know how many squats in front of 60 people ALONE, which i enjoyed very much. -Sense the sacarsm. I cried that time. I don't cry in front of so many people often. Even with my family, i cry in the toilet SILENTLY. ): Ok, so i did the buddha claps and i enjoyed it very much. -No sacarsm.

Later on, we had to give our group a name and settle on it during lunch. It was group 1 A.K.A Kouzners' duty, which means they had to serve the buffet food, clean up the canteen after eating and refill washing water for us campers to wash our utensils.

Soooooooo , we settled on our team name : TGIF which means the great interactive friends ! I know i know, not very original, but it's creative. It was my idea because i was telling Kas about her blog post title "Rolling in the Dee...pavali" was creative then i asked Adilah & her: What's TGIF? They said: Thank god its friday. Then i said: "Wrong, it's today got indian festival!" Because Deepavali just passed a few days before we went for camp so it reminded me of that. They laughedoutloud and it just spread among the group. Soooo, when we had to decide on our group name, we came up with different ideas and they all settled on mine. I was like yay-ay-ay-ay-ay!!!! My decision was considered and taken!!! Lol. (KAS, this reminds me of your video for DeeKosh).

  • Team values: Teamwork, Gracious, Integrity, Friendship ! WHICH MEANS: TGIF!

We played more ice-breaking games in the afternoon. One of which was the Domino card game. Yes, just like Domino's pizza, we have Domino card gme. It was a game that requires honesty & integrity. (idk what's the difference between the 2 words but it means the same). We played for 3 rounds and our group won the last round, making us win 40pts !!!!! Yoooooohooooooo!!!!!!! When dinner came, i was getting more nervous & nervous & nervous. Why? Because i have insomnia and im afraid i cant sleep in the night. Night training passed by quickly, it was 9.20pm when kas and 3 other group leaders have to go for panelling. They have to enlist the facils and some teachers about the greatness of our team.

Sooooooo, we, the other girls, went to have a bath and we proceeded to outside the canteen to wait for supper. We waited for 45 mins. I always walking here and there joining different cliques to chat. The most memorable one was with vanessa, me , mj, honghuat, warid, and le cong and BEN? We were talking about dirty stuffs! Lol. Warid was saying that when a guy gets hit in the balls, the pain is ousand times more than a lady giving birth. Then he acted out. All of us laughed. We had to control our laughter because the panelling was still going on and we didnt want to disturb them and get scolded. We kept on talking about balls, condoms and sick stuffs. We ended our chat when hong huat went to open the lid of the buffet tin and said we could eat those croissants? Im not too sure cos i didnt take any.

The leaders came out at arnd 10:50 pm. Kas was crying badly. We later have a group talk and went to bed. The most most ost special thing was then lights out at 11:30 pm but nobody cam to check! I think this is the most wonderful thing in this most wonderful camp. Teachers-in-charge never do attire check and night duty. They gave us a lot of freedom. I feel that we were very very very honoured. I didnt have insomnia that night, actually not at all for the 4 nights! :) I slept on the floor with farhana, adilah, nadine, felicia (which she cant sleep and joined chua in the night) & tingen! The floor was friggin cold every morning!

-END-

TEEHEE :D
Phew, long post here.







#1, refreshed!
Friday, November 11, 2011 | (0) comments

-Love is One Direction.


Alohaaaaaa,

It's been years since i last posted! :) Ok, so here's a brief post about what im posting for the next couple of weeks.

  • #1: What happened today,tomorrow,and the day after
  • #2: My holiday
  • #3: TLC Camp Days 1-5
  • #4: Thailand !
So here we go.

#nowplaying: Demi Lovato's Skyscraper. I always laugh at Ming Jie's joke about this song. He said: "You know the song skyscraper? The whole song, there isn't any skyscraper." I laughed out loud. But the song is real nice, soothing, and classic.

Today's 12/11/11. Yesterday was 11/11/11. I know it's a single date, i know ok. Why do everyone wished on 11:11 pm yesterday?!!?! On the 24 hour clock it's 2311 ! If you wna wish you've already missed it 12 hours. Birthday wishes, shooting stars, wishing wells, fountains and 11:11, do any of them work? None worked to me. ): I believe in SANTA CLAUS!! :D My holiday has been perfect. F*king perfect- P!nk. LOL. Out of point. -Just like KAS. TEEHEE. First week of holiday i went for this AWESOME camp at MOE Labrador Campsite with 57 AWESOME people, which became AWESOME leaders ! I'll post in detail of the camp later (which means it can be in a few mins, hours, days, weeks or months!). Sorry, i just can't control my laziness.

I've been rotting at home for the past 3 days ! WHEW ! D: Before that, i went to watch 2359 with Xintien, Candy and Joey. HORROR MOVIE worzxc. -Our accent. ^^ *wink. I've watched 2 movies with them since holiday started- In time and 2359 ! MOVIEDATES WERE FANTABULOUS !

Today: My maid left for her hometown just now in the morning. I went to sent her off with my family members.
Tomorrow: Family day conducted by my primary school in Suntec Convention Centre.
Monday: Town with JJ's !

I forgotten my account for the other blog so i gotta move over here. NEW & REFRESHED ! Erased the past, forget those memories, regardless if they were good or bad.
Random stuffs: I'm really falling for One Direction! Theyyyy areee soooo hootttt. I don't even blab much about Justin Bieber or Taylor Swift although i'm a fan of them !

Okokok, i gotta offf noww. Im gonna post about my camp later on.